who said life isn't a roller coaster

been a while since i posted and feel the need to write some stuff down. Have had a very weird time lately but hopefully things are starting to look up. went through a very grueling 2 weeks medically. i never want to do that again. unfortunately the testing hasn't stopped but no longer is leukemia the question- now just could be a blood disorder, something else, or nothing at all. which is good- i will take it. the other good news is that i have met someone- E. I don't know where it is going but i am definitely enjoying the ride so far. it's good to know i am capable of certain things again and has given me assurance that a future is out there somewhere and i just need to sit back an enjoy the ride. now to go through the next series of tests starting tomorrow. at least one more tap which sucks and a blood series- but i can do this, i know i can. and that in and of itself is something i am very proud of.