Well the last of the weddings (i hope!) is this weekend. I cannot wait to just have a weekend at home. Haven't been home for a weekend since early August and it's starting to really wear on me. On top of having to deal with weddings every single weekend.

I've gotten pretty good at letting the words wash over me and not feel anything about them. Whether that's good or bad who knows-- but it is a great survival tactic.

I think of all of them I was most affected by Katie and Matt's. They were my roomates right after John died and we lived together for 2 years. They still live only a street away and I talk to them every day. I think finally seeing them married meant the end of something. Closure in another form. Also their favors were replaced by a donation to the walk and there was a beautiful plaque up explaining that. It was just a very special wedding to me.

Then there has been Cheryl and Tony's, Laura and James's, Jess and Matt's, Sadaf and Eddie's and this weekend Cindy and Steve's. I think this weekends will be the most elaborate. A theater on Broadway. I am excited for some time in New York but even more so I am excited for next weekend when I can just hang around home, spend time with some friends, maybe even cook and do some crafts.