odd

so this morning i woke up crying and hyperventilating. I had been dreaming about my engagement ring. i couldn't remember what it looked like....

so i took it out when i got dressed this morning and put it on today. first time i have worn it in about a year and a half- i put it on my right hand and wore it all day today. but still the whole thing is odd to me.

it feels odd, my nonmemory of it was odd, it's just been an odd day. so much a part of me and yet not a part of the new me. just plain odd.