weddings....

i am oddly looking forward to this weekend. i don't usually look forward to wedding activity type stuff now. it usually makes me sad. but seeing as this is katie and matt- who i love dearly and who mean so much to me i couldn't be happier to go to katie's shower. should be a fun weekend.

this is the summer of weddings for me- i think i have four between july and october- and am in one of them. a sign that we are all getting older and really and truly starting our lives.

i was the first of our friends to get engaged. makes me think of what we had planned for our wedding. i didn't want a shower-i think that they are the most boring thing on the face of the earth. there's only so many times you can get excited about a cookie sheet. (my attitude might be different if i spent any time at all in the kitchen!) we were going to be married in a little church by the water in salisbury. then have the reception on the water in hampton. of course us being us it was to be in november-- probably one of the coldest and dreariest times you could be at the beach. but we wanted to be married around thanksgiving becasue we felt we had so much to be grateful for- and by the water as it was where we both found peace and true meaning. it was going to be very large- much larger than either of us truly wanted but we just kept watching the guest list grow and grow out of control. john had so many friends and relatives in his life- his side alone was wavering around the 240 mark.

it's funny now because i know i would not want any of that if i were to be married. i want simple. a few people on a beach or in a church or something. maybe a nice dinner afterward. i think so many people focus on the wedding and not on the marriage. the marriage is what lasts forever. the wedding is over in a few hours.

no matter how i think though i am excited for katie and matt, and cheryl and tony, and cindy and steve, and laura and james. they all are great couples and i am sure will be very happy.

now off to my girls weekend :)